The fat lady has sung!

I can't beleive that I'm done. It's finished....unbeleivable!!!! When I started on my journey on January 15th this day seemed lightyears away, and it has been a tough road. Days of hunger, fatigue, aches and pains, but overall it's been fantastic. I feel better than I have ever felt before in my life, and I know it's because I've worked hard for it. All my sacrifices, all my time and all my determination has given me results that I have yearned for for so long, I feel good, I look good and I'm motivated to keep going, staying healthy and fit forever! This truly is only the beginning, but a great one that have taught me so much about myself, and my habits, and about what works and what definitly doesn't work, and my biggest lesson has been this one:

Where there's a will, there's a way! Just beleive that you can do it, you can change and jump in with all you've got!

My last assignement of the PCP was to go back to Week 1 and do the workout I did back then. I was truly surprised, wow, was that really all i did in the beginning. I didn't feel like I had done anything when I was finished, and it took me about 5 minutes to complete. Back in Week 1 I felt it was hard and I remember I dreaded what was ahead of me. So it really does work. I got stronger, tougher and fitter through it all, and I really feel like I'm at my peak...at least close to it. I beleive we can always strive to be better, you never reach the goal, not completely, but I sure feel like Iron Woman right now, and I'm proud of what I have achieved. It felt impossible at one point, but now I'm here. It's finished...I can't beleive it. 3 months has passed, and my confidence is better than ever...move aside world here I come!!!!!

So as I sign off for the last time it's with my two least favorite exercises: The dips and the Push Ups, sorry guys, I just never fell in love with you!!!!!

As the saying goes: It's not over til the fat lady sings, well she just sang: Sayonara my friends!

Observation in the gym!

Patrick gave me a homework assignement. I was to go to a gym and observe the people there to see what their muscles looked like compared to mine. Ok, I have to say that this made me a bit uneasy. I don't like to look at other people when I'm in the gym, but we all do it right. I always feel that everyone else looks so much better than me. This time was a bit different, I went into the gym with more confidence than I normally have, feeling fit myself. Still I think a lot of people looked better than me. Of course everone in there are different. Some are very slim and fit, some were very bulky and fit, and most are there to change like me. So in all I felt at least as fit as everyone in there, and I felt that my muscles looked good and very natural looking. I felt I looked more lean and had muscles that weren't too obvious. The most fantastic result for me during this prosess is that I have gained my confidence back. Before I would feel very small going to work out in a gym, feeling that everyone was better than me, but now I don't care about everyone else, because I feel good, I know I'm fit and I feel like I've found my place.

So move over people, here I come!!!!

Springtime..

Ahhh, spring is here bringing with it sunshine and warm weather. I have been enjoying my garden again, and have just planted flowers outside. So nice, it just transforms our whole house.

It does something to my whole being, and I feel more alive. Getting rid of all the layers of clothes, enjoying barbequing again( finally a break from cooking), and seing the kids playing in the pool. It's such a wonderful time of year.

I can't beleive though that it's only two weeks left of my PCP prosject. It's been so much better than what I could ever imagine, and now I can't wait to see what comes after. That's when my responsibility really begin s, without anyone telling me what to do or what to eat, then my learning truly begins, and I have a lot of faith in myself. It will be great!

Bring it on!

Ok, I have to say I feel great when I put clothes on, go shopping or just look in the mirror these days. At day 1 I never expected to be where I am now. It has been and still is a lot of hard work and disipline which was harder in the beginning, but I still have to grab myself by the neck sometimes and stop whatever I'm about to do...But in the end it's worth it if you get results, and now is the time where I can really see they are coming. I feel awesome and more confident and for that I am so grateful.

My weight hasn't gone down at bit and that truly surprises me when I look at my body, because it is totally changed. It makes all the horrible ab exercises, excrushiatingly hard shoulderpresses, davincis and lunges worth it. I will love to do them anytime now just because I know they work. And as goes for eggwhites....well I used to hate them, still don't find them tasty, but I will eat them everyday if this is what they do....Bring it on, I'm ready!!!!!

Ok, so my stomach looks a lot better....

Ok, my body has changed so all my hard work is paying off after all. My stomach is getting defined and my love handles are completly gone. My legs are definitly tighter and my arms look great, at least to me...

So two sizes down in pants and a slim waist, it can't get better than that, or can it Patrick...

Love-hate relationship!!!

Ok it's official. I hate the plank.....you said I would Patrick, but at the time we did 30 sec reps, now we have 90 sec. It's incerdible that 1,5 minutes can be that hard, but I said it: IT IS SOOOO HARD!!!!

Back in the game!

I'm back in the game. Even though I only flew for two hours and didn't cross any timelines on my way, my body feels totally jetlagged. But I pushed myself and said enough days wandering off the tracks, and I completed my workout. it feels fantastic to be back in the project 100%, and being back on the diet feels invigorating in a way. It's not difficult although I feel that I'm eating like a horse. That was one of the difficulties on holiday, to eat regulary and enough. I didn't eat unhealty or stuffed my face with sweets, I only had trouble finding food at the right times.

So on I go on my lonesome since both my co Pcp ers have taken a break. I hope it's not me guys, I know I'm a smelly fish at times, but hey it can't be that bad....


I look forward to the last three weeks on the journey to my better life, and I will give it everything I got. They say nothing comes for free, so here comes all my blood, sweat and tears!

Oh la la...

Ok, I'm on holiday in Mexico. And I'm NOT doing great with the project, it's not possible to be 100% true to the PCP while in Acapulco. Not so much because of willpower, which I have lost a little bit this week as well, I have to be honest, but just because it's bloody hard to get the right food to the right times....impossible and with people hardly understanding what you say, I ca tell you all that getting an eggwhite after my workout wasn't easy....I have been doing my full workout everyday, and for that I'm very proud, but for the diet that has been neglected a lot....Sorry!!!! I still am commited to completling the PCP, but I just have to be strong from next week and take my losses with a brave smile...It just couldn't be done, but I haven't strayed too far off course though...I have stayed on course with the breakfast, snacks have been whatever we'd find, lunch pretty good, but dinner I have to admit wasn't the smoothie, and I did have some carbs....I know I shouldn't have, but I stayed off the french fries....so until next week...hasta luego!!!!

Yet another setback!!!

The hits just keeps on coming....my way! Just when I have gotten rid of the flu, then I go and cut my hand, so now I can't use my left hand for anything....typical. But at least there are other things I can do, but it's not optimal for my workout....legs and abs are just some parts of the body, but what about the rest?

Hopefully I'll be back to normal in a few days....working out on a beach in Mexico...ahhhh...doesn't sound so bad does it?

Well, next blog I'll keep you updated on how that goes.....hasta la vista, baby!!!

A treat or a threat?

I was just told that we could have another indulgence in the diet. This time from 5-700 calories. I was very surprised by my reaction to this, because last time I planned for a week what I was going to treat on. this time my reaction was that I didn't want to do it. I just thought about how many hours I would have to work out to get it off again. I did have a cookie that I have been eyeing for a while and a handful of small licorice pieces, but what it did was make me throw up. It was a small amount of the calories that I could have had, but it ended up making me loose my lunch, so it was a complete disaapointment. So I have definitly changed a lot, since I started on this journey. Before I ate these things every single day, but now it makes me sick to think about putting them in my mouth. I would much rather have a handful of raisins or grapes...Funny how that happened!!!!

Yesterday I went to the Houston Rodeo. I had my smoothie dinner before I left, but five hours at the rodeo left me quite hungry. Everyone around me was eating all these yummy foods, but nothing that was part of my diet. I searched desperatly after something I could eat, something green, but nothing was found. It left me so frustrated at the choices of food at these events. They had nachos, hot dogs, pretzels, nuts, pizza and that sort of thing, but nothing remotely healthy. No wonder people get overweight in this society.....When i got home I had a salad, but woke up this morning with the worst headache...

The body is amazing...

No not my body, but THE body. I mean it adapts to anything really. I started out at one point and have now reached another, and now I couldn't even consider to move back. With all the changes, and ups and downs I've been through, I'm still amazed at where I am today. My body is changing in so many ways. It's definitly slimming and tightning, but also smoother skin, better digestion, better habits and less cravings, more willpower and an understanding of making choices...the right ones!!!!

I'm not saying that I will NEVER have a chocolate bar ever again, or NEVER want a bowl of cheetos, but I will think more about it, plan an occasional indulgence rather than have it whenever and in unlimited portions. I will think about consequences and what it actually does to my body, maybe even make decisions to eat stuff that does something for my body instead....

I feel I'm growing and becoming stronger day by day....


So I still stand b my statement, THE BODY IS AMAZING, maybe even mine.....?!?!

Going to lunch!!!!

Today I went to a birthday lunch with my lunchclub. I thought I couldn't eat, but my friends are so considerate these days that they make food I can eat. It was delicious, and eating with others makes the food taste even better.

I think it's so nice because everybody are so interested in what the project is, the consept of it, and wants to know my progress. I feel stronger as well, so even if everyone had a gorgous cake, I wasn't even tempted. It felt so good!

I feel like I'm on my way to a change in lifestyle, it doesn't just feel like a temporary thing anymore. It's not hard to stay on the diet, and it just feels natural to me now. Of course I won't miss my dinner smoothie after these six weeks are over. A proper dinner with my family will be sooooo nice. Now I just cook for them and drink my dinner in peace.....

But I do enjoy the fact that I can keep my social activities alive and well even on this project...it means so much to me to be able to feel part of something, it keeps my focus off what I can't do or have...

Go away cold!

This was the week where things really was going to take off, and I was so ready for it. I was on a roll, and that's usually when something goes wrong....and so it goes! Yesterday I woke up sick, and today even more so. This is just so typical. I had really gotten into the workout routine and the diet had started to get easier for me. Today my body doesn't want to move in any way, everything aches....and my appetite is non-excitent....I have gotten through breakfast and lunch, barely....kinda like forcefeeding, so not the amounts I'm supposed to eat. But with a stuffed nose, nothing tastes like anything...oh, I wish my cold would go away, fast!!!!!

Go away cold!!!!!!

Tested!

I can honestly say that eing social on the PCP is the hardest part. I have been tested to the max this last week. We went to our lovely neighboors last weekend, and I thought I can just eat my food and that will be ok. But not so, everything else looked sooooo good. I actually had to go home and sit in my kitchen and eat alone, then I went back and everyone had dessert....it got to be an early night for me.

Then again this Firday, we were invited home to a colleague of my husband. I brought my salad and felt really good about it. Even thought it tasted delicious when I ate it at the party. I felt really strong with my altime favorite food, indian, and pepperoni pizza right in front of me at the table. But again, by the time the chocloate cake came out, I started panicking....my solution was to tell everybody about the project and I got really good supportgroup...that sure helped.


Today we were again invited to some other neighboors and I had to say no, it's just so hard, even though I can eat, I just get so tempted by everything around me....

That's what I won't miss after we are done.....

Reconnecting with old friends!

For a long time my friends have been on me about signing up for Facebook, but I thought it was hard work and something I didn't need. But yesterday I caved in and signed up, and voops all of a sudden I had reconnected with a bunch of my friends worldwide. It's fantastic really. Everyone under the same roof so to speak. And so little work involved and so so addictive....I was on there chatting with my friends for hours yesterday, I loved it!

Don't know if I'll have time for the PCP now, Patrick....haha, just kidding of course! But definitly something fun to do during my sets of agonizing ab repetitions....or I should really say after a gruelling workout...my muscles are screaming these days, but I love it!!!! That's another thing that's addivtive....but it's worse things out there to get addicted to than Facebook and working out isn't it....so I'm good!

By the way, I'm so excited to see what week 6 will bring of hopefully good surprises on Thursday!!!!!

Fantastic workout!

I just had the most amazing workout! You know when you have one of those mornings where nothing seems to be working for you. You just want to stay in bed all day and do nothing, well that was me when I woke up, but I got up, had my breakfast and got my workout clothes on and went out in my garden. I stood by the pool in the sunshine, got my music on and started jumping, and at once my mood changed. It was fantastic! The exercises are quite hard and many of them, but today I did them all with a huge smile on my face.

My routine this week is this:

1300 jumpropes

4x20 squats/lunges

4x20 creeps/4x12 floorjumps

4x4-6 chest dips/4x 6-8 pull ups

4x 15 standing ovation/rowing

4x 15 forward shoulder raises/ da vincis

4x 15-17 leg ups/4x 25 sit ups

3x 8-10 v-sits/4x 30 sec plank

In addition we do an 8 minute ab routine off you tube.

So you can see that its a lot of reps and the muscles scream sometimes, especially on the last set it seems like they are saying " No more, please!", but it feels incredibly good when the workout is done, and I can't wait to do it again tomorrow!

Still hungry!

Ok, I'm officially older, but wiser and better than ever. I feel that with my participating in the PCP, I am absolutly doing something great for me and everyone around me. But after 5 weeks, I'm still hungry. Patrick keeps telling us the hardest part is over, and that from now on it will only get better. My cravings are all gone, but new ones has arrived. I never used to think about food, or feel hungry, but now thats all I do or feel. I never get full from my meals and can't wait until the next one, it's quite exhausting. I have gotten used to eating healthy, and I love the food I can eat or figuring out what I'm going to makew, but it's never enough. The worst time of the day is between lunch and dinner.....I can't stand being hungry all the time.....

This week my diet consists of:

Breakfast:

80 g carbs
120 g veg
1 egg
120 g yogurt

Morning snack:

70 g fruit

Lunch:

130 g veg
130 g protein
90 g carbs

Afternoon tea:

70 g fruit
1 eggwhite

Dinner:

50 g carbs
1 eggwhite
70 g veg

Night snack:

80 g fruit
100 ml milk


This week the exercise routine has changed a lot too, it's a lot harder, but that's the part I love. I might not get through it with a smile all the time, but I feel I'm getting stronger, and I just tell myself that You can do it!

I want this, the change for a lifetime...but the road to get there is so far a bit rocky, hopefully it will be smooth sailing soon, and very soon......PLEASE!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me! I am so happy that our little treat came during this week, as it would have been very hard not to have any cake on this particular day. I have had the flu today, no wonder since I have had two kids with the flu this week. So my body is aching, cold and hot, and not really cooperating with me. So to be able to indulge in something I shouldn't have, is fantastic. I can't say that it tasted any different, but I sure felt more guilty about having it. So my first treat was 4 red licorice, my absolute favorite candy. I could easily eat the whole package, but today I felt ok with putting it away after 4. Very proud of myself for that!!!!

I baked my cake yesterday, and the smell was incredible, couldn't wait to eat it. But today was like an anti climax sort of. It's been in my sight all day, but I feel like I don't want to have it. I will of course, but just a little later. I am planning on sharing with my kids and my husband who has been out of town for almost a week. He comes home this afternoon, hopefully with a lot of birthday goodies for his wife....

It's been a really good day. My family has all called me from Norway. This is one of those days when I really miss having them around. I have gotten used to not having them there after 5 years abroad, but some days are harder to do without family.

Just had that birthday cake. It tasted yummy, but not as good as I would have thought. Was that what you meant Patrick? But I did enjoy getting cake on my birthday anyhow. It's not a real birthday without the blowing of the candles and everything. My kids sang happy birthday for me, and I opened my presents.

I am planning a movie night with my long missed hubbie. We are watching Nights at Rodanthe with Richard Gere and Diane Lane, I think one of the most romantic movies around, and lit candles everywhere...sitting next to my sweetheart again....can't get any better than that....

Friends and Family!

I want to say a special thank you to all my friends and family that stands behind me, and beside me through this project. It means the world to me to have wonderful people supporting me and beleiving in me. I have learned through these trying times, that without you I couldn't have made it past the starting line.

Lifechanges are hard, testing our strenght and sanity, it really shows what we are made of. My failures in the past has come down to willpower, without it we can't achieve anything, and now through great motivation, I have found mine. It was berried deep down, but now it's reach daylight, and I won't ever let it disappear again. This all comes down to having your support to begin with, and having you cheering me on in this great and difficult journey to a new and better existence.

I want to make better choices for myself and my family, and to learn how to find my confidence and true happiness. It has been and will continue to be an amazing adventure, the most important one so far in my life, and I am so lucky to have you all there with me. Thanks to you I am so motivated and so ready for this change.

Thank you, I love all of you so much!

Taking the good with the bad!

Yet another day home with a sick child. That's what it's like being a mum, it's always somebody else who needs you. Which most of the time is a really good feeling, but when it keeps you up all night and clings to you all day, it can be a bit too much. This has been my day today, feeling sleepdeprieved and down. A good thing about this is that I feel my dedication to my project is strong. I feel like no matter what I am keeping at it, there is nothing that is going to stand in my way. i am on the way to where I have always wanted to be, and I am going to reach my goal, my dream. It has been tough today getting to my work out and keeping with the diet, but I have done it, and that I am very proud of. It shows me that I can do this no matter what, no matter where I am or how I feel, because it's in my heart and in my mind. That's the key to success, the one thing that will take me to the finishline. My carrot is my happiness, and my happiness is feeling healthy and fit, and having loads of energy to give to my family.

Typical!

I'm new to Houston, and my social network hasn't been all that up til now. But just when I start on this project, it's taking off. And what do I have to say to everyone that invites me out to lunch, dinner or to a drink out? No, thank you, I'm doing the PCP. That is just so typical, hopefully it doesn't ruin my chance for friendships. I do say, please ask me again, I'm not doingPCP forever...so my wish is that I will have a second chance....

This came up right this minute, when one of my wonderful neighboors came over and invited me and my hubbie out tomorrow with all my other wonderful neighboors....a shame, but hopefully worth it!!!!!

What can you do ey....stick with your choices and stay strong at heart!

Pull ups!!!

Pull ups, man thats tough....The minute I let my feet off the floor, I just hang there wondering what I'm doing. My brain doesn't seem to get that message as to make my arms work...funny....I tried for the first time today, and I managed a half pull up. Pathetic really...but to my releif my hubbie thought it was tough too. So at least I'm not alone in my misery. But as Patrick keeps saying, just try and it will get better, at least that's what I'm telling myself. Sometime into the future you will be able to do this, Lene. Yes, I will, but not right now!

Give me food now!!!!!

Soooooooooooo hungry today!!!!!! I can't believe it. In two weeks I've gone from hardly eating and being fine with it, to a food crazed woman who can't eat enough. PCP is making me into a monster.....ugghh, I want food!!!!

Going to the store is a nightmare, especially in the time between lunch and dinner. I'm sooooooo hungry in that time and feel like the tiny amount of fruit I get as a snack is just teasing the stomach....

This week the amount of food decreased and the intensity of the work outs increased. I can feel my body struggling with that. Don't get me wrong, I love the work outs and today was the first time I really got sweaty...finally, but with a growling tummy it's hard for the rest of the day!!!!

Patrick keep telling me that the body will adjust and that it's only a feeling, but boy is it a nasty feeling, hope my body adjusts quikly!!!!!!

Roller coaster

Wow, I can really tell that my body and mind is changing fast and furious at the moment. I can see the bodily changes, I can feel the changes in energy and the benefits of actually eating right(for that sake at all!), and my mind is skifting from minute to minute. I don't know if it's good all the time, it's a lot of ups and downs, like a roller coaster. I feel happy, then sad. I feel energized, then empty. I feel motivated, then discouraged. I feel confident, then insecure. I feel a million things in a flash. I feel insane sometimes, like I'm manic depressive. My family gets all this thrown at them most of the time. But I know where it's all coming from, so I'm not scared that I'm getting sick or anything, but it's incredible how dramatically the body changes. Luckily it's all good most of the time, and I know it's not a lasting element through the project. But I do find it interesting. I now understand how badly my body functioned before, and how good this ultimatly is for me, and for my family in the long run. So I keep going strong, one day at a time, one minute at a time....

Caring mum!

Today I have been the loving mum. My son has gotten the flu. Poor little guy. So it's been all about giving him some TLC. Usually my day is all mine, and I get kinda selfish about it, I don't like it when something comes in the way of MY time, but not when it comes to my kids. They can take all the time I have, and I love them even more for it. There is something special about the time I have with my kids, it's just too little of it. The older they get, the more busy they get with their own things. Soccer, practice, playtime, friends, school....not much time for mum in there, but today I had my fill. My son is 11 already and he's just a mammas boy, he loves to hug and hold hands. It was just such an incredible day. Just me and Marcus, hanging out...it's a day full of smile and laughter, even if my little guy is sick...I still hold it in my heart. Love you, Marcus!!!!

Good groove!

I'm in a good place now. I feel more relaxed with the diet, don't have so much cravings anymore and the working out everyday routine is getting to be an absolute part of my day. My family is working around my daily rituals, which isn't all that easy...it seems like it's mummy need to eat. all the time, but we're working it out day by day! It's starting to feel natural now, and that's why it feels good. Kinda figured some things out both with myself and with the project. It takes time, and I guess I need even more time to fully feel like I'm there, but I'm on my way! I'm now a force to be reconed with.....oh yeah baby!

Psyched!

I am sorry that again today my blog is about cooking, but I'm so psyched about this, I had to tell the world! I am starting to LOVE cooking, it's so awesome, I just can't beleive it. Two weeks ago this is what I dreaded about this project, cooking, and so much of it, but just today it clicked inside my head. In a good way, ok, and I got all these incredible ideas about foods I WANT to make and try out. I am and have always been an unrelentless picky eater. Just ask my mum!!!! But now I feel like a whole new world has open up for me, I go to aisles I have never been to in the store, picking up items I never dreamt I would, and I want to cook. I just can't get over that fact. It's becoming a very natural part of who I am. Today I started searching online for receipes and discovered a whole community of ideas out there, it's a never ending adventure and I am so happy for myself that I have reached this point. Finally thinking about what's good for me, and starting to plan what I want to eat tomorrow. I have never really thought about cooking, just grabbed whatever was there, or figuring out 10 minutes before that I had no idea what to make, so this is HUGE for me, so mindblowing!

Cooking!

I have never really been a good cook. I cook everyday for me and my family, but I never REALLY felt passionate about it. I feel that is about to change. I have to really work at finding out what tastes good, and how to make things from scratch. In Norway we are used to a lot of half made just add water kind of foods. I did learn something about cooking from living in Japan, they didn't have those things I was used to, but still the creativity wasn't there. I just cooked out of the need for food. I have always been a bad planner when it comes to food, so it's always been the easy way, the quik things....that's all about to change. Now I spend tons of time cooking, and experimenting with herbs and spices, somethings I have found to be delcious, and some things I plain out didn't like, but that's the clue with this project, to find what I like and stick to it. It's all healthy so doesn't really matter if it's turkey or tuna, peppers or broccoli. The secret is in the seasoning. And so many great tasting stuff out there that I never dared to try. Thanks PCP, you've made me into a little cooking daredevil!

This is how good I feel today. It's been a rough couple of weeks with so much going on outside of the PCP, but today I felt great! I managed to eat all my food, the work out was fantastic despite of REALLY sore calf muscles and my family has motivated me so much. I promised myself NOT to walk up on the scale so soon, but after a compliment from my sweet husband yesterday I just had to. Guess what....I had lost 2 kg or about 4 lbs already. What more do I need to know before I beleive that the project works!!!! Absoultly nothing!!!!! Happy, happy, happy!!!!!

Bad habits die hard!

I haven't quite gotten rid of my diet coke yet. I still have to have a taste of it once in a while. Lately it has been everyday, but I have promised myself to STOP!!!!! And I will, but I feel it helps me get through the rest of the diet. It is so hard not to be able to have a piece of licorice, which is my favorite candy of all times. Or a few Sugar babies....or M&Ms.....there is now nothing.....so that's why the coke has stayed, but now it's out.....out...out....I've got to be strong......but it's not easy..... at least I'm down to one from four, so for me this is Fantastic!

I feel this craving sensation, not for something in particular, but definitly for something. Thank god for strawberries. I LOVE them, and they help me with my craving for sweets. I could eat them all day, and they give me something to look forward to.

This is my wonderful family. They have done a fantastic job coping with me and motivating me so far in the project. Al though my husband is laughing a bit of all the food I'm going to eat. He knows what I'm usually like....

It really helps having family to get you through tough times. Having someone to talk to and make you busy with other things so it's not all PCP. It can be all consuming sometimes at least now in the begining. But they are all cheering me on... I love you guys!

YEAH!!!!

I passed my drivers test today, so now I can officially drive in this country!!!

On to the diet, it is killing me. I usually eat very little, so for me this equals eating like a horse. The two days so far, it's made me sick . I just force feed myself til the grams are gone. Doesn't really feel too good...hope my body will adjust after a while!

My diet consists of the following:

Breakfast: 110 g carbs, 1 egg, 160 ml yogurt, 160 g vegetables

Morning snack: 120 g fruit

Lunch: 100 g crabs, 150 g meat, 160 g vegetables

Afternoon snack: 120 g fruit

Dinner: 60 g carbs, 80 g meat, 100 g vegetables

Night snack: 100 g fruit, 150 ml milk

You see, this diet really wants you to EAT!!!!! For a girl whose body is used to eating next to nothing, this IS a challenge, much more so than the daily exercising.

The exercise is great, I like the exercises and it's not too hard. I feel I can manage more which means I'm not taking it all out. I'm sure I will eat my words, but at least I enjoy some of what has come so far! Still I have to say the push ups are the worst of it and so many more this week than last, but in the end I have been promised they will be a breeze. We'll see....

So I am struggling a bit with eating my portions, I feel they are Texas style sizes.....HUGE in other words. As they say here: Everything is bigger in Texas! So true....

Emergency room....

Oh, boy...It goes from one crazy thing to the next for me. Today I was planning on having my last lunch with the ladies, but the universe wanted it differently. The exact moment I was about to start eating, my daughters school called and said she needed to go to the emergency room. So off I went no food at all, but my girl is more important....

So all day I have spent in the emergency room stiching up my 6 year old daughter, so no last day treat for me....Tomorrow is the start of the real thing and I feel ready as I can ever be!

Easier said than done...

Being on a half-diet, should be an easy project, but it's not. For me who is a skipping meal kind of girl, it hit me like a brick after day 4. The first few days wasn't so bad. I have tried to find a balance in what I usually eat, but it's not easy at all. I have also struggled with teeth this week. I feel like I have been to the dentist everyday, and I almost have. I have also been on pretty strong medication, so with very little food and my medicines, I have been feeling extremely dizzy the last few days. Yesterday I had to skip my workout as I could hardly stand up without feeling nauseous. Today I have been just as bad and spent most of my time sleeping on the sofa. But there is no way I will skip two days of work out. Patrick said not to worry and take it easy, so I won't push myself to hard today, but try and do something. At least I will be done with my teeth and medication before the first real week of PCP. Can't wait. This has been very unpleasant indeed.

I want to thank you all for your support, and promise that my blog won't be so depressing over the next step of the project!

Oh, that empty feeling...

I can't really describe it, but I have an empty feeling inside. I don't really eat all that much more normally, but it's something about knowing that you can't have what you want when you want it, that makes you crave everything so much more. Yesterday I was lightheaded and dizzy all day, and nothing worked out all that great for me, but I'm sure my body just has to adjust to this new regime of mine. I can't wait for next week when we get a regular diet and know when and what to eat throughout the day, so far it's all very confusing. I don't know if I am doing it right. We are supposed to eat half of everything we normally eat, and for me a very unregular eater that is hard, because what do I normally eat....I don't even know....The work outs are fine, with a dizzy head I suppose no kind of workout is good, so I am making the best of it so far. I do hope things will turn around and that this is a lesson teaching us to eat right and put the bad stuff on the shelf...Is it please tell me it is.....

Day 2

It's been a good ride so far. I hardly eat anything as it is so my husband was a bit worried that I would go from eating very little to eating nothing, but so far no problems. My teeth are another story. I woke up today with a toothache in the tooth I am going to extract on Monday, so I have not to high hopes for a great weekend. Sorry that my blog is so focused on my teeth, but that's really all I think about at the moment.

My workout is going great though, not to hard. The push ups are bit of a drag, but I imagine it will get easier as we go. The jumprope brings back memories from my childhood, used to do that all the time back then, so I kind of enjoy that exercise. I am going in with 100%, so I reach for doing the max amount of repetitions, and not quitting no matter how much it hurts. I have my husband looking at me so I do the exercise correctly. But I have to say it feels GOOD!

It feels great to finally have gotten going on this project, after two months of thinking about it. My good friend Corry, got me so excited early on and kind of took me through the hard parts, so feel prepared for it getting harder than it is now. So after chatting with Patrick, I do try and enjoy this first week, as the tough weeks are ahead!!!!

I am so happy that we are more doing the PCP as we can take eachother through the good and the bad, giving motivation and cheering eachother on a bit. I do think we'll need it. I have to say though that my co PCPers are intimidating, as both are SUPER healthy vegetarians....and 10 years younger than me....puhhh...feeling old isn't great!!!!! It feels like my best years have pasted me by, and that I'm chasing time right now....

Day 2 is going strong. I have planned my normal Friday night dinner with my hubbie. We usually have tacos, and I make it as lean as possible, so half portion today, that will be my day 2 challenge. We usually eat while watching a movie....yeah I know, BAD idea, but that's our time after putting the kids to bed, and we are both worn out after long days, so can't help it really can't help it. But today is the beginning of thinking differently. Watch what I eat no matter where I am...

I am studying to take my American driver's lisence on Tuesday so have to get back to those rules.....so many rules.....but I am going to make it and walk out of that office with a card in my hand and a smile on my face, so I keep on reading!

January 15

Ok, so it's the first day of the PCP experience. I have been looking forward to this day for a long time, both with excitement and fear. You never know what it's going to be like. I am excited about changing my body and especially getting rid of ALL my bad habits. I have been eating wrongly for years ending with a lot of nighttime snacking. I have been an addict when it comes to diet coke as well, so GOODBYE to all of that. Finally....Today is generally a pretty bad day for me so far. I started out going to the dentist and went home one rootcanal richer, JIPPPI! Lucky me right....so things can only look up from here. I do have an extraction waiting for me on Monday, but then it's all good! Can't wait...I am going to workout today, I have to be strong and get it on, but I have to say I am extremly happy NOT to have a specific diet today, as I pretty much don't want to eat anything. I have had a diet coke, I know so BAD right, but that was the only thing I needed, something with taste. I will keep my number down, so 2 instead of 4 today, it's a start right....Ok, feeling quite bad right now with a mouth that is just pounding away, so it's off to bed for a couple of hours. Hopefully I will wake up with a little less pain and more eager to get my body moving....

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